Currently Listening Infinity on High By Fall Out Boy THE WHOLE DAMN THING!! (not a song by the by) see related

Who's a college student??

JAZZ IS A COLLEGE STUDENT!!!

Yeap! School.. Fun Fun.. NOT..lol..  Im totally in like 13th grade.. Or if I were on Degrassi grade 13.. Muhawhawhaw..  U wastards need to update cuz Myspace is alwayz fucking up..

I cant even go to one of my best friends site cuz this ho has it rated X and my ass aint 18 yet.. WTF ASHY?!?!

1 month and 16 days and well see wholl be viewing the Rated X.. Wait.. Not that Ill view it ALL.. Just.. U know.. Ashleys.. hehehehehe...

Why am I here?? I gotta finish my financial aid app. and some English AND math homework..

Youth tonite at 7.. FUN FUN!!

Welp.. Longer update is promised for laterz..

Bye Guyz!!!

Currently Listening FutureSex / LoveSounds By Justin Timberlake see related

HEEEEYYY...

hehehe..

Wazzup peeps??  Crazy crazy huh..

This weekend was good.. Three day weekend..

I got to see Emile HIrsch.. And no matter how DEPRESSING it was..IT was still HIM.. So thats awsome..

Too bad the wastards made us go to school 2day..

I find myself not wanting to deal with like ANY drama.. Like.. I used to thrive off of that shit.. Like if something WASNT wrong.. I didnt feel RIGHT.. Now.. For the first time.. Im truly HAPPY with life.. And yea.. NOt everythings exactly how I want it.. But thats cool.. I can deal..

This stew is amazing..(random I know..)

I really hate to cut this short.. But the boyfriends complaining.. Cuz apparently myspace is more important..(no really)..HAHA.. Just playing.. Ill do a better update later.. This is just for NIcky..WHO I LOVE..lol

Currently Listening Away From The Sun By 3 Doors Down see related

Wowzers.. Its been forever since I've updated..

Sr. year is crazy.. I find myself going through that whole "graduate phase".. I mean like.. Things are changing.. And they arent changing in a way that.. Hey, maybe next year.. Blah blah blah.. I mean..There is NO next year.. Me and alot of my friends will be gone in a good 9 months.  And I personally think it's sad that we cant use our last year to get closer.. But further..

Contrary to popular demand.. I had fun for my 17 this Saturday.. A lot of bullshit DID go down.. But I cant complain.. I can only take what happened.. And use that shit to learn and grow and all that gravy stuff. 

I told someone that I really cared about just how much I cared about them.. And well.. I just.. IDK.. Im at peace with the fact that I've done all that I can and that theres nothing left to do.. I really love this person.. I mean.. With everything.. And Ive never felt for ANYONE how I feel about him.. And maybe it was very selfish.. Ok.. It WAS very selfish to just throw all this random information at him.. But at this point.. Im sooo sorry.. I dont care.. I cant keep holding in shit like that.. I just cant.. I can only hope that he doesnt hate me.. Cuz I could NEVER hate him..

Im thankful to have such an amazing bff.. Like seriously.. That girl.. Shes NEVER deserted me.. At times it may have felt that she did.. But she didnt.. That was just ME being selfish and wanting her all to myself.. Which I cant.. Becuz shes such an amazing person.. Peopls should have the chance to be blessed with her prescence and friendship like I have for the past 5 yrs.. I love u Nicky <3

I also stop talking to someone that I have these..er..strange feelings for.. Its like..Ok.. I may have liked him.. Part of me still does.. But at the same time.. Hes not one of those people that I even WANT a relationship cuz I know that itll only end up in like..UGH..But I never thought that in a million yrs I would miss this guy like I do.. Like..Omga.. I just miss him.. He made me laugh.,. He made me cry.. But he was alwayz the person I was with when I was having the time of my life.. And I owe him a big thanx for that..  I can see us talking again.. I really can.. But I cant see it being the same.. Who knows.. Maybe thats best..

Ash.. If ur reading this.. I did NOT sell u out.. I promise u with everything in me.. But I cant make u see that.. And all I can give u is my word.. Thats it.. I love u.. U know that.. And after this.. We will never be the same.. I can only hope that for the remainder of high school we pardon all the damn drama and just go on as we alwayz have been.. The closest of friends..

To everyone else.. Im sorry.. If u guyz r like utterly lost.. But Im not gonna put just ALL of my business out on flippin wanga.. If u arent close enough to me already know what Im talking about.. Then Im totally sorry.. This update was prolly pretty pointless.. But thanx for reading peeps..

Happy bday to my dad!!! <3

"I know you feel helpless now, I know you feel alone. Thats the same road, the same road, that Im on."                   - 3 Doors Down

Currently Listening Try! John Mayer Trio Live in Concert By John Mayer Trio Waiting on the World see related

OMGA!!!

WHAT A WEEK!!!

Cancun was absolutely brilliant..

I swear if uv never had a margarita in MEXICO..

Then dammit..Uv never had a margarita..lol...

Our hotel was absolutely breathtaking..

The Barcelo' on Tucancun Beach..(look it up nosy wastards)..

And while we were there..My daddy bought into this VIP travelers club.. Its kind of a lot to explain.. But I want to get some people together and go to...(drum roll)..CANCUN for our senior trip.. I mean.. 16 yr old drinking age.. We r legal.. Can u say..CLUB STRIP.. I have to make a list of about 8.. I think I can hold 10.. But 8 is pretty comfortable.. I already know who I want to go..Of course the same people whos been planning this trip since frekin middle school.. But we also got a few newbies in there..Just a few.. So yea.. If ur on my list.. We r gonna have like a little meeting and all that.. Cuz we gotta get these plans underway.. SO Ill definantly be hollaing at u soon..

But anybowayz..By the end of my trip.. Me and the bartender at the activity pool were like well aquainted..lol..His name was Jose..(I KNOW..how frekin cliche).. He was sooo damn adorable..OMGA.. He was cute.. AND he tried to holla.. But Im going through this thing where Im like NO GUYZ..hehe.. SO yea..he was cool with it..With his adorable self..lol.. But teh NO GUYZ thing is TOTALLY weird.. Since the whole time I was in Cancuna Beach.. I kept dreaming about two specific guyz.. MMMmmm.. Anyone care to guess.. I mean.. LIke literally..Every damn night.. Was just like..guy #1 or #2...UUGGGHHH.. I thought I left all of that bs in Houston..

I got a tattoo.. And I dont mean henna.. I mean.. a REAL tattoo.. My real friends know what I alwayz said I wanted.. RIGHT.. Well I got it.. First one to guess what it is gets an extra long comment from urs truly.. Its hot.. I love it..hehehe.. AGAIN.. The frekin tattoo guy tried to holla.. And I was like NO DUDE FUCK OFF..hehe.. He was totally hot..But more of my bffs type.. U know.. Big swoley.. Mexicana.. NIce hair.. Tattoos.. YEa.. Totally NOT for me..

Im back in Houston..BUT..Im not at home..Im at my dad's hotel..Im gonna be staying here until he leaves tomorrow.. Oh..and just for Metcalf..I promised Id tell everyone about some kind of water thing going on at North Shore Park or something..Its Thursday..IM gonna try to hit it up just for Trey.. So everyone..Yea..GO.. Ill be in touch with u guyz..But my phones dead.. So um..YEa..EVENTUALL..hehehe..

I got some gifts for a few friends... So if u think ur special enough..Hit me up..and I shall say yay or nay..(IM gonna feel soo bad if like EVERYONE calls me and Im like..nope..sorry..NOTHING FOR YOU..lol)..

NOw the big subject..

The subject that EVERYONE is waiting for me to talk about

ME AND NICKY

BUM BUM BUM

Shes gay.. Shes sux.. Shes a meany..

DUDES

Come on.. Im totally joking..

I love that girl..

And she damn well knows it..

The break is going fine..

JUST FINE..

I never realized what good friends I had until I actually gave them a chance.. Cuz usually its just kinda like.. To hell with u..UR NOT MY BFF..NO..really..lol.. But I mean.. Me and some of my friends are getting totally close.. Not as close as me and Nicky.. But close enough for me to actually like WANT to be around them..  Ive actually started back talking to someone who I used to be TOTALLY close with.. And we had this big falling out and we stopped talking and blah blah.. But now we r picking things up..(actually.its more than ONE person..Care to take a guess..lol..) I keep hearing people say.."omga..if I had to do what u and nicky do..id die..but u guyz are so not normal..ur REAL bffs..and ull totally make it through this..blah blah..' I mean..totally nice to have ur support..But um..I dont really need it..Cuz this..I ALREADY KNOW..

License in less than a month.. Actually..TODAY.. Duggy and I are going to look at cars.. U know.. Cuz there isnt a specific one that I want.. But I do have a list of qualifications.. So Im gonna go test some out and compare.. I feel so sweet 16 right now..OMGA..I SO GOTTA HAVE A RANGE ROVER..lol..

OMGA.. Guess what..

BUM

BUM

BUMMMM

I think that Ive decided on my solo song for this year..

HEY.. Thats a big deal peoples.. I mean..Its gonna be crazy..

Ill give u a hint..

Its two songs..

Im going for this way of kinda bringing together my two loves..

Rock..and R&B..

But thats all I shall say..

U guyz just have to wait and see..

So until then..

Au revoir!!!!

Its been a while since I updated..

I just got back from spending a week with my mom up in Marshall.. It was actually kinda relaxing not having to deal with all of the bullshit that there is here in the city.. Shes trying to talk me into getting this Mustang.. See.. I originally wanted a Mustang.. But my dad told me that he would rather that I get like a new Civic or something.. So I FINALLY got my heart set on something else and my mom finds a Mustang that she really wants for me and is trying to get me into it..(she prolly just wants to borrow it..lol).. But I guess we shall see.. I mean, I get my license on the 22nd and daddy says that Ill definantly have my car back then.. So this shall be interesting..

Scarlets is going really well.. But its the weirdest thing in the world to go to practice and expect to see Ivana or Shalane or Jasmine or Lemil.. And remember that they are NOT there and will never BE there.. But I like the new team.. the baby scarlets are really cool.. I just gotta stop living off of memories..But I cant believe what an amazing dancer Im becoming.. This year Im ready to just do this mind blowing solo.. I mean, I alwayz do well with my solos.. But Im just so much more experienced.. Im ready to just like knock u guyz over.. So stick around for that..lol.. I mean, Im not at the level that I need to be for my UT drill team audition.. But Im totally confident that by the time next years auditions come.. Ill be ready..

Everything seems to be changing.. Not necessairly for the worst.. Just changing.. I feel like Im losing one of my friends.. And I dont mean a "Hey, I know u from Myspace" friend or a "Call me if u need help with the pre-cal homework" friend.. I mean like one of my best friends.. Shes becoming a completely different person then who shes alwayz been.. Which is perfectly fine.. Cuz I mean, we are all maturing and changing and blah.. But I mean.. She wont call me back, or message me back, or text me back.. And like.. If it were ANYONE else.. Id be like.. Well damn u.. But becuz Ive been so damn determined to make this friendship work.. I guess I DO kinda make excuses for why she hasnt been treating me the same lately.. Oh shes busy.. Or her cellis messing up.. Blah blah blah... But its getting pretty old and right aobut now all I want is my friend back.. I just hope everything is all bagged up by the time we go to Cancun in July..

Its been quite refreshing hanging out with new people.. I mean, Ive alwayz been the kind of person to not go around and make new friends.. i jsut want to stick with the same people who Ive alwayz been wtih (which u can see from the above paragragh that thats practically improbable).. But its nice to get out and meet people and not be so.. I mean, I dont know any other way to put it.. Not be so MEAN.. Im tired of focusing on guyz and boys and men.. I mean..UGH.. Im kinda over it.. If a guy wants to be my..(direct quote from like the love of my life) "best friend" Then u know what.. Im gonna respect his emotions and not push anything.. Im too smart for that.. (sigh).. But that doesnt mean that I can necessairly control the way I feel.. Just the way I act.. Well.. Sometimes..lol.. But I love Brandon.. And he IS one of my best friends.. And I love THAT..lol..

Today is my bestest friends birthday

BON ANNI NICKY!!

I hope that u have an amazing 17.. And for all of those who arent going out with us tonite.. We will be celebrating up until like August.. (its like tradition..lol).. Nicky I know ur reading this.. I just hope that u have an amazing bday and u already know that u mean everything to me and that Im so happy to be blessed with a best friend who possesses as much talent, humor, strength, and beauty such as urself.. I LOVE U BO!!!

4 DAYZ TIL WARPED